你爱我吗？

約 翰 福 音 21
15 他 们 吃 完 了 早 饭 ， 耶 稣 对 西 门 彼 得 说 ： 约 翰 （ 在 太16 ：17 称 约 拿 ） 的 儿 子 西 门 ， 你 爱 我 比 这 些 更 深 麽 ？ 彼 得 说 ： 主 阿 ， 是 的 ， 你 知 道 我 爱 你 。 耶 稣 对 他 说 ： 你 喂 养 我 的 小 羊 。

16 耶 稣 第 二 次 又 对 他 说 ： 约 翰 的 儿 子 西 门 ， 你 爱 我 麽 ？ 彼 得 说 ： 主 阿 ， 是 的 ， 你 知 道 我 爱 你 。 耶 稣 说 ： 你 牧 养 我 的 羊 。

17 第 三 次 对 他 说 ： 约 翰 的 儿 子 西 门 ， 你 爱 我 麽 ？ 彼 得 因 为 耶 稣 第 三 次 对 他 说 你 爱 我 麽 ， 就 忧 愁 ， 对 耶 稣 说 ： 主 阿 ， 你 是 无 所 不 知 的 ； 你 知 道 我 爱 你 。 耶 稣 说 ： 你 喂 养 我 的 羊 。

18 我 实 实 在 在 的 告 诉 你 ， 你 年 少 的 时 候 ， 自 己 束 上 带 子 ， 随 意 往 来 ； 但 年 老 的 时 候 ， 你 要 伸 出 手 来 ， 别 人 要 把 你 束 上 ， 带 你 到 不 愿 意 去 的 地 方 。

19 耶 稣 说 这 话 是 指 着 彼 得 要 怎 样 死 ， 荣 耀 神 。 说 了 这 话 ， 就 对 他 说 ： 你 跟 从 我 罢 ！

20 彼 得 转 过 来 ， 看 见 耶 稣 所 爱 的 那 门 徒 跟 着 ， 就 是 在 晚 饭 的 时 候 ， 靠 着 耶 稣 胸 膛 说 ： 主 阿 ， 卖 你 的 是 谁 ？ 的 那 门 徒 。

21 彼 得 看 见 他 ， 就 问 耶 稣 说 ： 主 阿 ， 这 人 将 来 如 何 ？

22 耶 稣 对 他 说 ： 我 若 要 他 等 到 我 来 的 时 候 ， 与 你 何 干 ？ 你 跟 从 我 罢 ！

23 於 是 这 话 传 在 弟 兄 中 间 ， 说 那 门 徒 不 死 。 其 实 ， 耶 稣 不 是 说 他 不 死 ， 乃 是 说 ： 我 若 要 他 等 到 我 来 的 时 候 ， 与 你 何 干 ？

6 lessons:
1) Jesus sacrificial love even though Peter denied Jesus three times.
2) 你爱我比这些更深麽? Do you love Jesus more than other things else?
3) Jesus sees us as though we are sheep who are without a shepherd leading and guiding us.
4) How do you treat the failures of yourself/others? Jesus was giving affirmation 肯定。
5)　Peter was comparing/competing with John when his turned his eyes away from Jesus
6) 你跟从我罢！Follow Jesus daily

Source: Sermon on 15th April 2012 by Deacon Wang Ren De

CG Genesis Chapter 5

Very interesting understanding by Nanson during CG on 20th April 2012. Three very interesting insights are:

1) 歌 林 多 後 書 6:14 你 们 和 不 信 的 原 不 相 配 ， 不 要 同 负 一 轭 。

Because only one line from Seth was good/right before God the other descendents of Seth were probably being influenced by the descendents of Cain.

2) Gen 5:1 VS Gen 5:3. Image of God vs Image of Adam. Image of Adam was after the fall which is sinful.

3) Gen 5:29 indicates that Lamech (and family) was righteous because he remembers the suffering was from the curse of God.

都归于你名

I think this is the song that was presented by the Wesley Tambourine Dance during Easter Sunday 2012. Nice song and dance!

歌曲:都归于你名
歌手:万国敬拜与赞美
专辑:2002新歌专辑
都归于你名
演唱：万国敬拜与赞美
专辑：2002新歌专辑

我们是短暂，祢却是永恒
万世的主宰，掌管时间
我们像云雾，祢永远长存
祢爱不止息，至高掌权
圣哉圣哉，全能主上帝
被杀羔羊，祢真配得
至高颂赞、尊贵和荣耀
都归于祢名，都归于祢名

我们全破碎，祢是医治者
耶稣我救主，大能拯救
祢是我诗歌，赞美到永远
跪拜祢脚前，称颂祢名
圣哉圣哉，全能主上帝
被杀羔羊，祢真配得
至高颂赞、尊贵和荣耀
都归于祢名，都归于祢名

圣哉圣哉，全能主上帝
被杀羔羊，祢真配得
至高颂赞、尊贵和荣耀
都归于祢名，都归于祢名

圣哉圣哉，全能主上帝
被杀羔羊，祢真配得
至高颂赞、尊贵和荣耀
都归于祢名，都归于祢名
都归于祢名，都归于祢名

Source: http://music.kuanye.net/music/info/id-6421.htm
To listen: http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/HEHR6TlwLJE/

为什么营会总是让身体那么累，但却让生命有如此大的反思和得着？

Pin Hwa Camp March 2012

应当一无挂虑，只要凡是藉着祷告，祈求和感谢，将你们所要的告诉神。神所赐出人意外的平安必在基督耶稣里，保守你们的心怀意念。在营会前一天早晨的灵修，这一段经文就出现在所看的书里。固然已答应参加营会，但其实内心非常多的顾虑：会不会记得他们的名字，不知道组员们会不会听话，能不能与他们做朋友，没法记得每一项活动，吉他弹得来吗…等等。此经文的到来真的是恰到时候，把一切切都交托时心里马上平静了下来。刚好也是在和平组，peace就在此经文出现。

刚开始见面与认识时，场面几度陷入沉默。非常感谢欣欣以她多年的经验从旁协助，特别是在练习口号是，欣欣举出双手让失控的场面恢复了次序。噢，原来肢体动作能发挥如此的功能！之后就一直伸出手来引导小朋友排成直线。

记得沙文同学的报名表其实是注有贫血的，因此多加留意他。万万没想到他竟然是极度活跃的，总是动来动去，跑来跑去，没办法让他停下来。永康同学身为学校的头号人物，也被安排在和平组。在还没介绍时，他几乎所有组员都认识了。打从第一天开始，他就已经自愿要当男主角。演出的心头大石，第一天就被移走了！

玩游戏时，大家的七情六欲都跑了出来。心里担心的子熒同学本来没什么要参与，但当玩到一些她有兴趣的游戏时，她就非常地投入。最后，她更是成为剧本内容的主要功臣。

也记得演绎浪花一朵朵时，他们的创意和他们的动作真的是差点让组长们笑破了肚皮。他们想要组长当吉他手，但依然顾虑弹不好。但是当他们圆溜溜的眼睛看着你时，试问你又如何能忍心拒绝呢？

在演出的时候，蹲在旁白旁边时心里正担心下一步要如何，但他们反而却边说，边看，边笑。这是在演出吗？他们给的答案是不是。看到他们是如此的投入在其中，羡慕之余也得到提醒必须要享受每一个生命的过程。

感谢神，他们都非常的乖，每一位都很特别。

为什么营会总是让身体那么累，但却让生命有如此大的反思和得着？也许这就是生命与生命交流所产生出来的。

What an ironic day?

11 December 2011

I was driving as usual going to work at Westports. Using the same roadway, I came out from my house, passed JJ and stopped at the t-junction’s traffic light which making a u-turn in front would lead to Westports. This morning I was listening quite attentively to the radio station BFM. However, usually I would go for MyFm.  I turned right at the junction and headed towards Westports.

There are two lanes on the road. I was cutting out to the right lane in order to speed up. In front of me was a lorry and I waited for a few cars passed through then only was I able to move to the right lane. Speeding up and following quite closely to the car in front. Just before the Shell Petrol Station, suddenly and unexpectedly the car in front of me either pressed the break paddle quite strongly or stopped the car on the spot. Fast observations of mine realised that a few cars in front were not moving as well while the left lane traffic was still flowing.

Without wasting time, I wanted to put my car into stop immediately. Unfortunately, the distance was too short and the break system was not strong enough for me to stop on time. Bang! I hit the Viva in front of me. Just a couple of seconds between the time I was trying to stop and hitting the car in front, I already knew that it was too late and I was sort of “prepared” for the collision to happen. Fortunately, it was not a continuous accident where in front of us there were two more cars involved but only one direct car involved. Four cars in total where the second car hit the first whereas I was the fourth and the last car hitting the third.

We parked our car at the petrol station so that it would not block the traffic. Then, I went down from my car to see and find out about the situation. Under that circumstance, I was shaking a bit. After discussion with the lady driver of Viva, eventually we left the place. After I made an U-turn heading back home, white smokes coming out from my car before I went out from Pulau Indah. Stopped for a while to let my car cool down then only Ｉ continued driving back. Again white smoke coming out due to my car water had dried up before I reached Jusco. Stopped at the road side and waited for my dad. My dad came and we exchanged car and drove back to the shop safely.

Just the day before, I was asked by my parents to go to SSM for their business registration. But I refused straight away and it was a very rude replied. Today the car accident happened. I was on emergency leave on the accident day, ended up the same if not worse if I would have agreed to apply leave to accompany my parents. What an ironic day…

What is so invaluable about the time being in Oxford?

I have seen the life-changing of people from non-believers to believers. It is about relationships and friendships that we could share our weaknesses and strengths and therefore encourage one another. There were times where I could think of questions or faith issues in a much deeper way. It was a place where I could practice my belief in action by living out what I have learned from the words of God: led Bible study, helped others in personal matters, did washing ups willingly, had compassionate or deep understanding about the feelings of others. Many times it was about sacrificing and putting others’ needs first instead of fulfilling only my own desire. I shared and listened to the lives of one another. I was more “real” than ever before!

 Only a few days after losing the environment and friends in the UK, I started to be afraid that I might be "assimilated". Here, life is full of busyness and having people with different value (especially people in the business world). However I shall spend more time to pray and to think quietly so that hopefully I could face the challenges lying ahead of me.

Related blog: http://mathewshia.blogspot.com/2012/04/my-greatest-life-lessondiscoverytransfo.html

My greatest life lesson/discovery/transformation in Oxford

Giving only one word to describe, it would be “HEART”. It is about listening to my heart, hearing the voice from within. Two examples of relationships would show how my “heart” is no longer the same as before. Firstly, I have started asking myself whether my devotion and praying were just outward actions that did not connect to my Heart – relationship with God. I would say not praying or not having quite time is the same as praying or devotion without Heart if not worse. Secondly, I am grateful to my friend (WW) who gave me a very practical question when it comes to the relationships with people. The question was “what can I do for you?”. Though it sounds simple but it is so powerful that can drive me to think from the perspectives of others.

 “I have stepped through a door, and could not escape the new world I now inhabited.” – from the words of Alister McGrath (Real Scientists Real Faith, Berry, page 17, 2009). However I am not sure whether it is a new world or a world that has always been within me. I might have just taken notice about it or I was avoiding or disregarding my Heart. Certainly, it is just the beginning of the discovery or transformation.

 As a matter of fact, there were many factors that encouraged this transformation. I would point out two of the key factors which were the people around me and the substantial amount of personal or quite time. The brothers and sisters in Christ were giving me a lot of supports to enable my growth. In particular my spiritual brother (spiritual father is more appropriate) – ML who was really himself striving to become more like Christ and also helping me to do so through leading Bible study, reading books, sharing gospel, having fellowships with friends, travelling together and serving at church. I believe God listened to my prayer by preparing a real friend to me which was beyond my imagination. Being a single and a student, I had more time to quite myself and reflect on myself. I have done many unimaginable things that I never ever would do when I was back in Malaysia: travelled to places (usually the whole day) just to meditate upon certain issues of my life, pasted letters on the wall of my bedroom so that I could reread and also put my thoughts into writings. Although it seemed to slow me down but it actually helped me to move on faster because I became more aware of the “whys” of doing something.

 Related blog: http://mathewshia.blogspot.com/2012/04/what-is-so-invaluable-about-time-being.html